Okay, so I'm back in the swing of my very own personal nutritional lifestyle. Let me be clear: I am not on a diet. I'm no longer doing a cleanse. I am fully committing to eating the way I have found to work best for me. It's a challenge some days.
I'm craving feta something fierce. I LOOOOOOVE feta. Really, I could probably live without every other dairy product in the book except feta. And it's just sitting there, in all it's Greek glory, in a little clear plastic container in my fridge, just daring me to have a taste. Grrrr.
I almost did. I mean, what's one little bite, right? One little bite… would lead to two little bites. Which would prompt me to make a grilled cheese with feta (if you can eat dairy and you haven't tried feta in your grilled cheese, do it NOW). And then, well, I might as well be eating pizza and milk chocolate and all of the wondrous things I miss so very, very much.
So why the hell am I torturing myself? Well, I'm not. At least not in the big picture. As far as food cravings go, yes, I'm in agony. But am I not more than a food craving? I mean, I am a healthy, sexy, wonderful woman, a yoga enthusiast, a mother of 2, a partner to my soul mate, an artist, a writer, a blogger, a friend… I mean, damn. I got a lot going on.
And speaking of torture, the agony of food cravings pale in comparison to the disdain of seeing my face all pimply and my skin dull. I have been battling acne for 25 years. Did you read that? 25 YEARS. I'll be 36 in a month. That's more than two thirds of my life!
So, I will take my torture in stride, because I am more than a food craving. Maybe one day I will find some magical herb or meditation or spell that will dissolve my reaction to dairy (and wheat) and I will chow down on some feta cheese. Until then, I will glow with the strength it takes to be bigger than something that has had a hold on me for as long as I can remember. That, and I will kiss the Earth with gratitude that I live in a place where I can actually CHOOSE my food. Read that again: I have not only the choice to eat what I want, but to not eat what I don't want. That's pretty powerful stuff.
Shine on.
